Tuesday, January 08, 2008

下雨了。。。。


listening to raindrops is very therapeutic for me now. Felt safe in my shelter where i can call home.

我们都算是刚刚开始过新的生活。生活中细微到冲凉房出现一个蜘蛛都要自己想办法与它共存。朋友都约我出去,希望可以帮我转移注意力。其实,我并不害怕自己一个人去面对这个事实,所以我总是鼓励朋友一定要学会一个人去面对人生的种种问题。因为由始至终都是一个人,没什么好害怕的。朋友陪伴当然是bonus,但一个人面对,你的收获会更多。

到目前为止,还未正式感谢关心我的所有听众及朋友。 谢谢你们的留言,每一则,我都看了,铭记在心。我已经不哭了,只是不知为何,声音突然沙哑,好像要失声了。我很好,大家放心。我要感谢我的好友一直传简讯慰问我为我加油。要特别感谢陈泰铭,忘了告诉他这个。
在焚化场,我出来说我对mc的想法时,虽然我叫自己冷静地说完,但是真的不容易,泪眼蒙胧中,我看到泰铭在那儿用手势叫我慢慢来,take it easy, 没有那个手势,我实在说不下去。谢谢你泰铭。

我这个星期原本就拿假了,因为假期剩十天,必须清完。但是,这两天虽然没on air但还是回去公司。星期一去录制mc的纪念特辑的cd,昨天回去看陈奕迅。去年1月7号是他在新加坡的首场演唱会,才一年罢了,“明年今日”已无法再见。

本来出殡后,我应该在这里写些话的,但因为安排工作事宜让我没有这个时间。当天致词中,最令我感动的是alamak。我没看报纸,不知道他们有没有刊登。他说mc 曾经告诉他为什么有些人可以不红?他要告诉mc,他很红。那是最催泪的话语。是朋友都会难过。 我每次都说我做了广播那么多年,不知道别人记得我什么, 不觉得自己红。 在这个圈子,不红就表示你的工作可能不保。所以有很多艺人都是缺乏安全感的,因此才会心生嫉妒或看不顺眼其他艺人。 那时我们接过十点的主持棒子时,还有听众打进来,冷嘲热讽地说当红dj 离开了,看我们电台怎么死。 mc 总会告诉我,“你已经很红了,很多人认识你的。我们的节目很多人听的,一起合作一定可以做得好的。” 而当时,我这个朋友却没有察觉你跟我一样缺乏自信心。你把所有的鼓励及信心都给了我及身旁的朋友。

所以,大家要记得,不要以为你的朋友都过得比你幸福, 比你有钱,比你开心,比你老公对你好很多,一切条件比你优越。他们不讲,你怎么会知道呢?这也是mc 经常叮咛我的事,看待事情不要只看表面。所以针对任何报道,任何别人给予他的comments, 请用你的心去辨别是非对错。不是所有眼睛看到的,都是事实。 有人说mc 什么都好,只是那张嘴容易说错话,得罪人。 我倒觉得象他这样愿意点醒你的朋友已经太少了。

最近在翻看如何处理失去亲人去世的 书籍。看到许多“专家”给的建议,我觉得internalize his best personality into your character 是最有效的方法。你们从mc 那儿学习到什么?把这个优点融入你的性格中,感觉他的一部分仍旧在你身上延续比不去想他或一直想他来得理想。
我在mc 那儿学到很多,最想internalize 的优点是他为人不怕麻烦。任何时间,任何情况,只要有心,就不觉得麻烦。 mc, this part of you shall live with me forever!

29 comments:

Flying fish said...

Hi Renee,

I am sure lots of frens had given u comforting words these few days.

Let's not mourn further and lead a better life. MC King will stay within our hearts at all times.

Also, like u say, let his character be part of us.

BE STRONG, BE GOOD, BE JOVIAL.

Yours faithfully,
Flying fish

HuiLin said...

告别昨天,走近今天,期待明天。

咏梅, 加油咯!

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei,
Glad to know that you are coping well and moving on with your life. I am sure MC King will be glad to know this as well.

Take care!

Anonymous said...

咏梅,

感谢妳, MC 一辈子也不会忘记有妳这个好友. 可不要难过.

希望妳幸福.

Janet

Anonymous said...

Hi Renee,

Every working class ppl will remember him forever , unless they dun take MC. Once we are sick , we got to take MC. So, everytime we take MC we will remember him forever and ever. See how popular he is.

MC King we love u.

Anonymous said...

Yong Mei, you can extend that by writing out here about how mc "teaches" about being a person and encourage you...this will help many of us...

i am also trying to cope with that...yes, tai ming and chu ming are great!i know thomas ong also!

don't worry, you did very good with your speech though you are really very sad at that time and can see you try very hard to control ... glad that you did well in the special edition.

jia you!

Anonymous said...

HI YONG MEI
I Looking for 97.2 chinesenew year cd.late year i earit . sang by you all .pls let me kown wherwe to buy pls thank you

Anonymous said...

咏梅,
so happy that MC has such a great real friend like you. During the funeral, I can sense how sad your tears were. Watching the tears flow out of your eyes when you offer him 最后一蛀香 and saying so much words to him made me tears too.
But it is time you keep all your tears now and start to smile just like before.

Take good care!!

JJ

Anonymous said...

Cried so hard the few days too,esp when i watch the casket go in w my fav song..Life still goes on, do u think we "ke pei", after a while, we forget n start treating every1 and everythg for granted again, let's not revert to old ways, stay strong 2..

Anonymous said...

詠梅,

加油,MC的精神永遠與你同在

Serene said...

Hi Yongmei, feel so relieved to hear from you again, i was so worried for you since your last blog on 7th early morning until now, donno how were you coping so far? Yongmei, come on, cheer up, this is what your beloved friend MC King want to see... BE STRONG & LET US SEE YOUR SWEET SMILE AGAIN :-)

Anonymous said...

你说利益关系,你那天是要新明登什么的,你又给新明什么?你们也有自家报刊,干吗一定要它登?《优一周》都有登MC King的家居生活,反观新传媒,有吗?
新传媒不给期下艺人上其他报章,怎能乱乱怪人呢?有事就躲媒体,不敢发表就推给公关。你最后上报,应该是你还在心电台时吧!被跟踪的事件。

不知新传媒几时批准我的偶像上报访问?

Anonymous said...

anonymous 2.55pm, you are from xin ming? pls dun be so harsh to ym just when she is "recovering".

Sharon said...

Hi Renee,

Be strong and we know that you can cope.

All the best to you.

ET said...

Yongmei,

A group of MC King and yours supportor/listener sadden on the passing of MC King. We cried in our heart and chanted that he will be in pureland with Lord Buddha.

Before the passing of MC King, we already felt that he was very popular and like him to co-host with you. In fact, we still hope this dream will come true. Listening to his laughter will make your day.

Take care and be strong.

Anonymous said...

咏梅,
我今天上了Omy 网,看到他们报道有关MC 的新闻,也看到出殡当天你的致词,我的泪又在流了........很怀念他的笑声。

http://www.omy.sg/showbiz/enews/200801/20080107_017_mckingfuner.html

你好好照顾自己哦!
kate Tan

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei
You are really a true friend of MC.
Is not easy to find one this day.
Is better for MC to leave at this fast speed than slowly suffering if he got a stroke. So cheer up, MC had gone to a beautifully and peaceful place.

Anonymous said...

Hi Yong Mei,

Is good to hear that you feel better now. Everyone have to move on and bring along the good memory and love with us.
Lessons will begin end of this month and whatever we learnt from books and life will help someone in future.
All the best.
Bee

Anonymous said...

Take good care !!! Love to hear your voice on air again. STAND UP
life have to go on :)

David Sia said...

Hi Renee,

I enjoyed the programme hosted by MC King and you so much that I had looked forward to your coming back together when DJ Billy ended his time-slot recently.

The unfortunate demise of MC King came instead. I witnessed his last journey on Monday.

All is not lost, Renee. We may miss the physical presence of MC King, but we should always remind ourselves that we've not lost him totally.

He has merely moved on into a much happier and peaceful world. We should all look forward to an eventual reunion in the other world, and leave it to God to determine WHEN. As an analogy, he has gone on tour to a distant country that we would eventually meet up. Just as we would do for our loved ones on earth, let's pray for his safe journey and wish him all of the best out there. We need him to pray for us too, remember.

Occasional dreams of our loved ones out there can heal our earthly wounded souls. Care to share with us on this blog of such occasions ?

I'm sharing this with you through my own experience with the death of my beloved mother.

Take care !

David Sia

Anonymous said...

Hi YongMei

Glad that you are stronger and moving on.

You are one of the best and don't forget that you have many supporters around you.

Take care

Angela

DJ Kevin said...

Mummy 加油 。。。

Anonymous said...

看见蟑螂, 我不怕不怕啦! 我神经比较大, 不怕不怕不怕啦!
一个人睡也不怕不怕啦 !勇气当棉被, 不怕不怕不怕啦 !
夜晚再黑我就当看不见
太阳一定就快出现 …
Dear 梅子,人嘛!就是在学习中慢慢成长rite.
知道你安好,我也安了!临睡之前,来给你加油!明天是MC头七,希望他来到我们的梦里和我们聊天!依然好怀念他!晚安。huijun

CHEERS said...

Hi Yong Mei,

Glad to hear that you are fine. Be happy always. We miss your voice, now enjoy your leave and we are waiting you on air. Although u did not got the qinqie dj award but you are the best dj in our heart. JIA YOU BE HAPPY

Somewhere in Singapore said...

Hi Yong Mei

Have listen to the MC 记念专辑 on mon and that it's well done...

Take care, 加油!

Sam said...

I can understand the feelings of loss when someone so close and so dear to us, left forever.

Just pick it up on whatever he had left behind, lived every single day without forgetting him, putting him in the little corner of your heart.

He will be happy, when he watching you from above, that you are living in happiness.

A song for you - "Cant cry hard enough", by William Brothers.

Be strong and all the best wishes to you...

Anonymous said...

Yong Mei, Jiao You...

ahbee_me

DEB said...

读了你的部落, 眼泪不知觉得落了。。
记得有一次看到mc king和其他的艺人,有点不自在。
可是mc king 很friendly,和我谈天。
真的很不舍得。。。

你要勇敢。。
把mc king 得精神发扬光大。
咏梅。 真心希望你会快乐。

我们互相鼓励吧!

雨终有一天会停的。。
在那后, 彩虹就会出现。。

爱你!!

Anonymous said...

hi yongmei,

ive emailed u abt the health club. hv u received it?