Friday, January 04, 2008

我已经好久没有象今天这样无法控制自己的眼泪。


那是因为你一直都在。但今天, 你不告而别了。所以, 我不知道怎么控制我的眼泪。

过去一年, 有好些不开心的事,如果没有你,我真的不知道怎么样在开麦前把眼泪擦掉,继续开心地说话和值班。因为你,我可以学着坚强。但抱歉,我还是没有经一事长一智。所以你总是说我笨,叫我“永倒霉菜子”。你总是不看好我的所有感情对象。 我知道你用心良苦要我学精明一点。但是我还是没变。你总是苦口婆心地要我勇敢去处理事情,不要被人欺负。因为你,再难过事也能度过。

还好我没有笨到不知道你对我好。

我知道你爱吃canteen的鸡翅膀,总会买来当早餐。 而你,总是很容易满足。每天吃chicken wing都不腻。我送你的耳机,你把它当宝,旧了坏了还保留着。最后一次请你吃东西是在几个星期前,你来跟我一起值班,我买了很好吃的cherry tart, 你一口气把一半给吃完了。看你吃东西,我也会食欲大增。因为你比我更会惜福。

你总是不怕麻烦。auntie irene 做了蛋糕给我, 你多晚都送到我家亲手交给我。明明不顺路, 你还是会把车绕到我家载我上班。男朋友看戏后觉得不顺路要我跟你的车回家,你也没有抱怨。 旧同事聚会,你总是一一把我们送回家,由于我当时住最靠近你家,所以总是最后一个回家。在车上,你是个不多话的人,没有onair时的搞笑。我比较喜欢这个时候的你, 那是真实的mcking 。很怀念在车上一起听你播放陈百强的歌,你也跟着唱,坐在你的车上,我觉得很安全。这也是你一直给我的感觉,很安稳,是个理想的避风港。我被跟踪时,无法脱身, 只要一个电话,你就过来接我。甚至被那个跟踪我的人挡在你车前, 你还是帮我挡住一切困境。你从不说,但是我都明白。

我一直不知道,原来我已经不知不觉地依赖你这个朋友了。所以我接下来会很不习惯没有你,你知道吗?

今年应该是你开始赚钱存钱的时候。过去一年,你好不容易才把债务还完,今年应该是手头比较宽裕的时候。怎么上天就。。。。

我无法用说的来表达对你的感谢和思念,因为那太沉重,对我来说,太困难了。 所以我用写的,我知道你会看到的。刚才看你最后一面,看得出你在生命最后一刻也还在为所有爱你的人努力过,所以我也会跟你学习,努力让自己活得好,为身旁的人带来欢乐。

希望你安息,放心一路走好。这几年,你也累了,是时候好好休息。我下个星期原本已经请假了,但没想到是为了你的丧礼。

感谢你在累到不行的时候还会第一时间想到让身旁的人开心。象你这样不怕麻烦的朋友, 今后在我难过时肯定会在远方看着我,保护着我的。Time will slowly fade away this pain i'm feeling now but my memory of you shall always stay in my heart.

Farewell buddy, a kind soul.

66 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei,

A lot of things in life are very unpredictable and beyond our control. Take care and be strong.

972 loyal listener-YL said...

Dear.Yongmei, Although i do not know MC well,but thro ur blog i am very impressed by his character.He is such a nice guy. In this materialistic world, it is very difficult to find such a person! Let him live in our hearts.

雯琪 said...

加油, 詠梅 !

Anonymous said...

hi yongmei,
takecare, he surely know n can understand u, be strong
elaine

Sonikbyte said...

Yongmei from the thoughts i read. You must be feeling really lost now. He's like a big bro to you and of cos giving u lotsa support besides your bf. But sometimes this kinda of things happen really bopian wan, live on and get over it. Will u be going to his wake? If u need to order condolence flower do contact me @ 6554 1488

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei, take care of yourself. MCKing do not want to see you like this. Be strong, life have to move on - mabel

Anonymous said...

詠梅, 我和你一样痛。。。
MC 真是一个非常用心的一个人,
希望从此会在你身上看到他的精神。
你要加油!
我们会一直支持你的。。。。。。

Anonymous said...

I am so xian mu (envy) of you having such a good friend who is so sincere and really stand by you and listen to your woes. I have best friends but none of them willing to listen to my woes when i really need just listening ears! I know how you feeling now.

Anonymous said...

蓝钦熹 MC King 这名字对本地人来说肯定不会陌生,你带给我们欢乐是会永远存在的。你的敬业精神是值得大家学习。你的离去是我们的损失。在你的blog写到“人的一生所在乎的不是得到而是学到。。”我想我们大家应该学你对人生积极的态度。MC 走好。。。永远怀念您。。
詠梅,要坚强你有我们的支持还有天使MC也会看着你。加油詠梅。
Felix

xiang said...

hi~~我想知道mc的blog~~

huahua said...

yongmei。。 MC King 去了一個開心的天國。。we will meet him one day...take care...

Anonymous said...

mc secrets corner

Anonymous said...

http://mcking13.spaces.live.com/

Margaret said...

Hi 詠梅

读了你抒发对MC King的缅怀,很感动...

我常常收听你和MC King主持节目,你们俩无所不谈,笑声连连,默契甚佳。

MC King与你的交情深厚,虽然他时常揶揄你,但是我们知道他对你的好,在你受挫时扶持你,你对他今日的猝死,措手不及,痛入心扉,情绪失控,我们能体谅的。哭吧,不要太压抑...不过也不要太过悲伤,相信MC King也不忍看到你一直以泪洗脸的。

今天下午auntie Irene在电话里哽洇地告诉我MC King突然逝世的坏消息,我也回不过神来,无法相信,一时也不知如何安慰auntie Irene, 毕竟她和你一样,和MC King 多年的交情甚深。

最后一次见到他本人是在auntie Irene的家。犹记得那天晚上他刚从马来西亚工作回来,样子看起来很累,很憔悴,也很静,我们没有交谈。他只和auntie Irene聊了一会儿,拿了她送的月饼和糕点和递送给你的light cheesecake就走了...

世事难料,谁也无法想象一个生龙活虎,看起来健康有福相的人,会突然间一倒不起...唉~

詠梅,没有MC King 开导你的的日子,你不能再脆弱了,记住他的教诲,你要坚强噢,加油!

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daric_dowson said...

咏梅,
我知道和了解你现在的心情,因为我的心情和你一样。
虽然我和MC King 认识的日子不长也没见过面(只是在msn谈过话),但感觉上我们已是认识很久的老朋友。
咏梅,希望你会好好的振作。。。
因为我相信,MC King 他不想我们为他的离去而伤心。。。。。

Anonymous said...

Dear Yongmei;
This afternoon when Violet break the sudden news of MC departure....I was so shock and refused to accept that it was true.
MC is so knowledgable and jovial especially when he co-host with you.Both of you are always the perfect pair on air.I have a great feeling that both of you will partner again in Feburary and I am looking forward for that day.But my dreamt will never come true again.
Losing of MC,indeed very painful but I sure he does not wish to see any of his love ones sending him off with a sadness face and breking heart. Be strong and take as,he is away on a long long journey of happiness....

Pls send my Deepest Sympathy and heartfelt Condolences to his family especially his mummy.

Yvonne said...

咏梅,我相信时间会帮你治疗伤口的。时间不会让我们忘记他,跟会让我们去思念他,怀念他。
我相信他不希望看到他所珍惜的人为他难过。
你一定要加油。

Anonymous said...

咏梅,你要加油哦!虽然(他)离开了你,你要振作哦!我也很难过,流不完的泪。一边打字回你,一边流泪,还有我今天上班时,突然间听到(他)的坏消息时,我整个人傻了,虽然我是看他的戏长大的,更何况你们每天接触(他)你一定更难过的对吗!
咏梅,别难过了!那有个人没生离死别,对吗?


我是来自新山柔佛在也,玲玲!(他)永远都是我们的偶像!

Yu Mei said...

詠梅,

MCK didn't even know he is issued a one way ticket and not gonna be back. If anyone is shock and sad to hear he is dead, you can't be worse than MCK cause he'll never know. He's not mentally prepared at all !!! He, like you and I, never think death is knocking on our doors so suddenly.

I don't think anyone can cheer u up. You need lots of time to heal the pain and transform them to sweet memories. Its painful when you close your eyes, you see him. Sure you'll cry yourself to sleep, lost appetite, lost hope in life may be...

Yu Mei

Anonymous said...

I am very sad to accept the fact dat MC has left us!He was such a lively person,Why like dat???
YongMei,do take gd care of urself,I am sure he dun wan to see U like that,U need to b real strong!

Anonymous said...

hi, dear.. u must strong..

i also schock when hear the news.. anyway.. i understand u.. coz my parent oso pass away today.. its worst and don know how to express the sadness.. only god will know.
now only what could we do is.. just pry and go on with our life.

Jo Ann said...

Hi Yong Mei
I feel so sad and was also very shocked to hear the sudden departure of MC King. Your this post makes me tearing. Where on earth to find such a good buddy. Cry it out and you will feel better. Take care and be strong.

Kat said...

詠梅,

当我听到MC过世的消息时,我真的不相信这是真的,心里也非常难过。还记得去年常收听你和MC主持的节目,时常带给我欢笑。如今他已不再,真的非常惋惜,因为他是个人才。

我想你此刻的心情应该很难过,不过希望你会很快的恢复过来。你要加油!

MC,谢谢你带给我的欢乐,希望在天国的你,也永远的会快乐。。。

Anonymous said...

詠梅 !

你好!我来自是柔佛新山,我想要东方比利的Blogger,麻烦你thank you.


FORM : ANNIE

Thomas said...

Dear Yongmei,
In fact, I was very very sad this afternoon when I heard over radio of MC passing away suddenly. I really enjoyed your program when he was your co-host because the chemistry of you both was unmatch and I really enjoyed his unpretentious and hearty laughter which was his unique trademark.

However, after the initial shocked I felt that MC had indeed lived his life to the fullest although a rather short one. I have not met him but his jovial laughter will always be etched in my mind for a long long time.

You have lost more than a great friend but I'm sure MC will want you to be stronger than ever and he wants you to be happy too! Take care!

Anonymous said...

Yongmei, i was lost 4 words when i heard the news tis afternoon. U muz be strong,let time slip by, the pain will soon be over. Take care.

Tracy

Smilefool said...

Dear Yong mei
please take good care of yourself.
I can understand is hard to accept the fact but pls be strong.
Prove to MC king you can do it. Be able to take good care of yourself when he not around.
I will miss his voice and laughter.

August said...

咏梅,

MC King 的离去,的确让人们措手不及。
请你得好好地对待自己,保护、照顾自己,因为相信这也是MC所期盼的…

悲伤,并不时他想留下给我们的。
因为,他散播的快乐种子,会永远的烙在每一个人的心里,盛开出灿烂的花朵,把那些悲伤都遮盖的密密地。

闭上眼睛,惦记的MC King,只有他的欢笑,和那不屈不饶、永不磨灭的精神。

MC King, 祝福你坚强的走完该完成的路。
相信你在未来的旅程,继续扮演欢乐天使的使命!

安息吧…

Nano B said...

Hi Yong Mei,
Wanted to write you something to let you know that someone is addicted to your comfortable voice and programs for long time. When I heard the bad news from 972 today, the first thing came to my mind was you. It takes time to heal the wound. But I am sure that MC would not want to see you cry but like to see you be stronger and stronger. Lead yourself in good life as a gift to MC. - Yong Mei's Loyal Supporter.

Anonymous said...

Dear YongMei
4th Jan 2008 is a sad sad day to me infact a sad day to all listeners too! 最不甘心,最不舍得,突然失去这么好的朋友!*sob sob*人生无常啊!
MC是个很好人,他永远活在我们的记忆中!咏梅,节哀顺便!MC 会安息的!

i know exactly how you feel. 千言万语文字无法形容!!!!你要坚强点。MC的离开启发了我们。要珍惜眼前人啊。

we'll miss him for a long time perhaps forever!我只能说,能认识他真好。

"time heals all hurts!",just remember those wonderful moments you had with MC.

may you cherish the good times and survive the bad!!

take care and know that you are NOT ALONE okay! cos MC your Angel is watching over you!

MC,一路走好。。。。。。。。。。。

Love huijun

大叔 said...

大叔会让他知道你不是所遇非人的。

Sayang。

desmond said...

Hi Yongmei,

Your latest post almost brought me to tears. Although I'm not very familiar with MC King, I would always recognise him as a very interesting comedian in variety shows. Though your blog I learnt that he is such a wonderful person. Nice guys like him are simply hard to find nowadays. Take care and be strong!

杨军 said...

詠梅,
当我听到 MC King 逝世的消息 时,让我惊噩不已。还记得当时你们主持男生女生 配 和 MC King 部落格的 录影片段 让我怀念至今。你们的笑声与欢乐声终 让我喜欢上这个电台,只可惜我 再 也听不到 MC King的笑声了。你要坚强的往前走,秉 着 MC 生前要把欢乐带给大家的宗旨 与坚持继续下去。保重 詠梅 。

MC King 部落格 : http://mcking13.spaces.live.com/

Anonymous said...

我还在期盼着几时能听到MC KING 爽朗的笑声在你的广播中出现,你俩的合作默契最能让我快乐,但却....心很痛..久久不能抑止...
MC KING ..走好...梅菜子..加油...

Anonymous said...

Dear Yongmei,

Right here studying in France, I listen to Love 972 whenever I have internet access. The news came too suddenly for me this morning (Singapore's afternoon).

As a student who watched his programs since young, it was hard for me to accept his departure just like that.

Went to his blog to watch the videos posted by him. He was indeed a very cheerful person. I visited his blog with a heavy heart but watching his videos made me believe that he was still alive because they made me laughed, amidst my tears. He will always live in our hearts with his tickling laughter and cheerful character.

Having read your blog, my tears start to flow again... Although I am not his friend, just part of his audience, I feel that this is just too abrupt for me to accept. Be strong girl! Although MC King is no longer with us, I believe he will be watching over you. Indeed I must say that you are lucky to have such a friend by you all these times.

Time will heal and should you feel down again due to other matters in life, it might be comforting to visit his blog as the videos really made me feel that he IS THERE. May his cheerful spirit be with you when you need it.

Take care,
R

Anonymous said...

I cry and cry....couldn't sleep until abt 3am and wake up once because of a dream ...!thought of mc,etc... feel very terrible! went back to sleep and wake up at 7plus. still feeling very sad and depressed....

Eileen Heng said...

Hi Yong Mei, BE STRONG, cry all your heart be stand up for better tomorrow

Eileen Heng :-)

laichi said...

Pls send my Deepest Sympathy and heartfelt Condolences to his family especially his mummy.
加油詠梅。

sz said...

yongmei,take care n be strong

Ah Jane said...

哭了 读完这一篇
人 每天都在离开
人 每天都在依赖

他 也依偎在大家的支持里 跨出每一步
不同的是 今天 我们要为他 继续跨步

咏梅
在他最后一眼里 你看到了他最后一秒的努力
我们 也要为他努力到最后

加油了 悲伤 是一段日子
如果说 失败是成功之母
那么 就当 悲伤是勇敢之父吧

Ah Jane said...
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kent said...

yong mei and bryan lao si,u 2 must be strong!
mc king,i wil alway remenber u!

cuishan said...

As shocked and as unacceptable as u were , it was just few mths back when the three of us u me and mcking bang into each other at the mediacorp carpark ...he was always so happy looking,caring for his friends and listeners even report road traffic also very detailed clearly remembered seven years ago we had a fan and star radio interview with nicky wu ,the line on my phone side was already accidentally cut off already, he still took the initiative to call my home phone number to re ask the question and not move on to the next person...and after the interview he asked me whether i like the answers given by nicky wu and shortly after Radioheart ended and ...we tot never hear his laughters anymore lucky 972 after a few years got him and yong mei again..the best Pai dang .those days when i first knew both of u
i always wanted to tell yongmei ...I always Yi wei u were lovers especially the station birthday that year when u two sang a song together anyway Yongmei dont fall sick ...Mc King wouldnt want u to be down because of him...lets thank heaven that at least he left the world without much sufferings and have retain beautiful and kind memories for us..

For MC King ...this year no more festive greetings from you but i will always remember u as long as im around ...hope u have met Hua Liang ,Wang sha and ye feng shu shu they all in the other world already ...thanks for all the memories and Rest Well wherever u are now

Nicole Hah said...

咏梅,

对於 MC King 的离去,真的是难于接受,但是无奈的,这是事实!

和 MC King 不是很熟,只是在男生女生配的节目和他聊过天,在聚会的时候和他聊了几句,拍了一些照片。

真的很喜欢你和 MC King 一起主持节目的时候, 现在只能怀念了!

别太伤心,好吗!MC King 也不希望看到喜欢和疼爱他的人,那么的伤心难过!我们一起加油努力!

MC King, 你走好啊!我们会怀念你的!

Anonymous said...

hi Yongmei
从心 电台我认识了你,MC King,花心尤发。
在972我看到你的进步。对MC的离开感到惋惜!咏梅 加油!

Anonymous said...

Hi,i am very sad to heard about u died :( u must take care n be strong

Anonymous said...

咏梅,
失去身边一个这么好的朋友,那种心痛的心情是无法形容,我也很难接受这个事实,好伤心,想到为何他会在这个时后离开,昨天是1 月4号而不是4月1号耶!为何这一天变成了好多好多朋友悲伤的一天!悲痛失去娱乐圈的一位笑匠。
此时此刻的你要更坚强,记的要保重自己的身体,节哀顺便。
昨夜我也无法睡好,想到他的笑声…………….今后再也无法听到这一切了。MC King 您一路走好……我们会永远怀念你,安息吧。

Kate Tan

shu fen said...

hi yongmei,
I feel down too.remember last yr before he leave 972 i even talk to him.he give me a feel he is a person real well take care of his health,take care everybody feeling,when his down nobody understand him,nobody know him.as u said today his start to be well in everything,start to have gd life,he left us...
he is a person who responsibility,he know all his dept have finish,is time to rest...

Anonymous said...

Dear Yongmei,

Take good care of yourself. We have no chance to listen Mc and you on air again, so let him live in our hearts forever.

Love,
Mel

Anonymous said...

may i know mcking's blog website?

Anonymous said...

YongMei,
Be strong ok and take care. i feel very sad and really cannot accept that mc king left so sudden. After read your blog really feel like crying. He is really such a nice guy.

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Anonymous said...

anonymous 11.54, you never read the above posting? posted by at least 2 person

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei,

In life there are lot of un-known, nothing could be forever, don't be too sad. M.C also doesn't wish to see his friends being lost because of he leaving. Memorise the nice moments, keeping him in your heart, and spread his kindness to anyone that need assist. I suppose he will be happy to see us to be his follower in heaven.
Be Strong & Take Care.

L-5 said...

Hi Yong Mei,

人死不能复生,节哀顺便。要坚强一点。加油!

Cheers

Anonymous said...

roughly about 1 day from knowing mc death....still couldn't accept...still very sad...don't know if a dead person able to feel or do anything? able to know what's going on here? dont know how mc felt at that particular moment, don't know if is consider as "good" that left without illness because most of us "pray" that we don't be a burden to family interms of financial and taking care and also a torture to own... (but i think maybe not for mc who is starting to "enjoy" life and being such a nice and sincere well liked by friends and colleagues and filial to mother n good to brother, vice versa.)...

Yong Mei, hope you can post the special edition here because many of us might not be able to listen on tues...actually quite "confused" ,want to listen but quite afraid because surely that will make us cry and feel sad again...i am sure is hard on you having to listen thru all those happy moments and laughters of mc at this point....i salute you for having the courage...like mei zhu or yan zi said, she don't want/don't dare to stay on to listen while you are editing...

Samantha said...

Hi YongMei

While I heard from Radio 972 Violet break a news about MC King (Jimmy Nah) passed away due to intoxicanting within few hours.My sister and I can not believe it, it come so sudden and we heard his voice few weeks ago, he still crack jokes on air about ow to take care cats, tour guide and etc...
During his jokes when I am driving on the road I laugh until the tears drops. Sometime next car driver is looking at me. And wonder why this lady is laughing without nobody next to me.
MC (Jimmy) is such a nice guy why he left us without a word. Let God bless him in peace and rest in heaven.
YongMei, Take care yourself and send my condolene to his family members.

linton said...

知道蓝钦喜希望在wikipedia可以找到他的资料。我已在wikipedia created他的资料。希望你在wikipedia can enhance他的资料。加油, 詠梅 !

珊 said...

刚刚回到家因为离开丧家后我走了一段好长的路才记得搭上巴士.大家都来看他了.不知道是不是他也有感应所以好像笑着睡.我也哭不出来了.咏梅加油..我们都要加油.

Anonymous said...

hi, yong mei

he left.. just to others world.. we will meet him again in next life.. don worry...

take care...

d said...

Dearest Yongmei,

Everyone of us is very sadden by MC death and hope not this is not true. No words can describe the pain and how we going to miss him. Especially, the days that he had co-hosted with you. But, he had let us enjoyed these very short period and happy moment of our life.

Please be strong and carry on with life. I know that this cruel fact of life is very hard but we need to try and try.

May MC with Lord Buddha and in pureland!

Henry Leong said...

Hi,
Condolences and deepest sympathy!

Rainbow said...

Dear Yongmei,

Reading thru your mail, I too cry also. MC is a very nice chat and his laughter is always there. His kindness and helpful really blessed to his friends. Pls do not
control your feeling, suggest you go to seaside to yell / cried loudly to the sea, you will feel very good of it. Just express your feeling out in memorable to your best friend - MC King.

Whatever MC King teach you, you may bring out in your life, others
will also cherish MC teaching.

Kind MC will everlasting lives in people heart forever .....

Do take care and God Bless You!!

Rainbow

DO U love mii??? i love u very much.... said...

hi yongmei,I really think of MCKING really miss him .....

Anonymous said...

Hi Yongmei,

Although i do not know MC king that well, i ca still tell that he's a nice guy... Although he left us, he still live in our hearts forever and ever....
So be strong, he wouldn't want to see you unhappy like this... Let him be in our memories forever...